This blog has turned out to be so much more than just Scoliosis. I’m learning as the words pour out that there is something in my heart much deeper that needs acceptance, love and exploration. I’m hoping that you continue to read with me as we learn and help each other get through pain, no

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How do you go on without your best friend, your mom? My heart is composed of many intricate layers. It is infinite for me, only the Higher Power has access to my soul. Sometimes I feel when I wake up, my heart has been pummeled by a train, Disposed of in garbage. Your Higher Power

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I’ve taken a brief hiatus to grieve for my mother. As my mother has passed on now, everything seems so different but everything is the same. The world needs to stop, but everything proceeds… like in the calling hour line.. Everything advances as I see my world move on through the people who touched my

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Her eyes glazed over, but still very beautifully blue. She started to shrug her emaciated shoulders ever so slightly….not in a jolting way but more of a calming way. I was reaching for that strong pulse that once was so regular and vibrant, but now it had become dull and weak. As she started taking

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WARNING This blog may be controversial to some of you so please be reminded these are just my thoughts, my way of processing things that are evolving in my life at this point. You may not all agree. And that’s ok. When you get to a point of mortality..,,of life and death, it stirs you.

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Life is like a river. The ebb and tide of its ripples can lead you at a fork in the waves . Turning and swaying might lead you to an unforeseen future you never could have imagined. As the current carries you, you must be present in that moment for it to be preserved as

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I’m having a hard time blogging right now. As my eyes slowly turn to the left, I can see the colors of the rainbow through my tears. I can’t stop the hole in my heart from aching. Mindless tasks have become insurmountable. I write these words not for sympathy, but rather enlightenment. We all have

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As I started my experience, I entered this invisible fortress / doorway. I stepped into dim pristine water. It was comforting and warm surrounding my whole body. Oxygen filled my lungs even though I was underwater. These ethereal notes of music, of spirit, and vibrant colors started spinning in my mind and all around my

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approx. 40 years ago I woke unexpectedly in the exact position I fell asleep. 3:42 am the clock read. In the Milwaukee Brace the ONLY way you could sleep was on your back. Rage filled my body this time. Feeling strangled in my contraption as the metal collar piece encased around my debilitated neck, I

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I awaken. Eyes wide open. The dream I came from is a distant past. I tense all the muscles in my weak neck to look up and see the clock…… 2:43 am……..again 3:33am…….again 4:16am. The pain in my hands aches to a montage of tingling, numbness, and pain getting increasingly more intense. Circles on the

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